I need to get back to writing. I love writing. I enjoy writing and I use it as my therapy. While I am really in therapy over the loss of my son, writing is still a tool that is so useful in my journey of healing. I HAVE to get back to it and stay focused.
And, that is what this post is about- finding balance in my new life.
I am officially a stay at home mom. I have Jaxon home with me full time two week days per week and, of course weekends. He goes to daycare 3 days per week, around 4-6 hours per day- just to get a little socialization and "outside" time. We have mornings together and I take him around 11ish and pick him up at 445 or so. As soon as he is potty trained we are switching to actual preschool where he will be at school from 830-1130am 2 or 3 days per week, depending on the school.
So, I am trying to find balance right now. I am back to school, also. I want my degree, desperately. It is on my bucket list, so I am trying to work hard and earn it!
I am taking 2 classes for summer. Accounting and Geography. Accounting is engaging and interesting and I am full throttle with an accounting project for my grandparents, so this class really helps! Geography sucks, but is a requirement. Oh well. I love learning, so I am intrigued by both- but I thought the geography class was going to be more about the regions and mapping and currently its about how the world "came about". Not exactly what I thought, but ---I am learning!
I need to find a balance that suits me and I am just not there yet. I know I will get there soon, but in the meantime, it's difficult!
I also feel like I should be earning an income. Technically, I am still employed because I havent resigned, but in all honesty, I am done and not going back, so I am no longer employed and find that feeling super weird. I have been employed almost constantly since I turned 16. So, more than half my life!
With my current to-do list and my wish list, my plate is full. Working isn't a necessity at this time with our living arrangement and Jason is doing fabulously at work, so I really do need to chill out, focus on school and get my degree. I also want to get my real estate license. Jason and I really want to flip houses. We love the remodeling and demo aspect of the flips - we are remodeling our house too. Bit by bit as the funds, time and everything else needed becomes available.
I have found some great tools in helping me stay focused and helping me find the balance in my house. I just printed them (for free!), so I am hoping to give an update in a month or two of house my progress is.
And yes, I will finish my story of the loss of our son. But, really, that will take some time.
xoxo- Lady Lewy
